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[gok2]

Okay, right now, i really really have to type down what i feel.
I'm not actually sure what i'm feeling at the moment actually, but i hope getting this down will make me feel better.

So one of my good good friends has just told me something and it was not really a shocking news, but its more of the type that i cant do anything for them except for listen? i hate it when its like that. I'm also a little, maybe more than a little confused cause i just dont get how this works. How can two people like each other and choose not to talk to each other for 2 weeks? They say its painful and all so why cant they just talk to each other? =S
She's also worried that society and others will judge them cause of their 'preferences' & liking the same gender... *stupid judging people everywhere* =='
Arrrghhh.. I dont get it...
It must be so painful not to talk to the one you love...

Damn my fingers still arent fully healed...cant type properly and as fast.
But right now, i'm feeling pretty crappy.. not THAT crap but more than usual =O= Later, I have to go find a place for maths tutor because i'm failing in maths so much...dragging the rest of my marks down..

And also...I just cant stop thinking about this guy! GAHHHH... though i may never see him ever again. Actually, i'm certain about it cause there is no way that we would ever meet again... Its so annoying though because i've never felt this way and actually missing a person like this. This feeling...is not good >.<

Life is so complicated! Sometimes I just feel like screaming out randomly!
But then I'm also glad I'm living the life i have right now =D
I'm so contradictory ^^" thanks for putting up with me!


UWAA i feel a little better now! I'm rooting for my good friend & hope everything turns out alright for her & her loved one! I hate it when people around me are all sad and down.... =(
& I'm so glad I joined dreamwidth!
Okay, now I gotta work my butt off for my school work, so 2moro, i can go back on the RPG site! Gawd I miss everyone there so much! <333


For now, byeee!

Comments

[airah4]

First of all, I hope you're not hurting your hands too much writing this! ><

It's really sad about the person you're talking about. It's just really pathetic that in this day and age, people can't accept that everyone has their own preferences and needs. I hate that gay-marriage rights are so messed up in America, because to be honest, if it doesn't concern you, then why does it matter? It seems so unfair that all these narrow-minded people are demanding that homosexual couples can't be married, when they're not even going to be involved in the marriage! How do they have the right to decide about something that will make other people happy? I really hope your friend will find a way out, and her/he and their partner can just enjoy their time together, poor things....

About math, I'm so sorry about that...I was always bad at math too and had to get extra help! But you'll do fine!!! Once this class is over, you'll have much more freedom and won't have to worry about ridiculous math classes! GANBATEE!!!!!!

And well, I'm not happy to hear what you're going through, but I am really happy to hear from you in general! I've missed you so much! The roleplay community has been so different without you around. :(

But you know, what I really admire about you is that even though you're going through such rough times, you're still so positive! I really wish I could be like that, because reading your journal entries, I feel so hopeful. There's a lot to learn from people like you! &hearts Please never change, stay strong!

And about that guy.....what you said sounds so heartbreaking....why might you never see him again? If you really love him, please keep the faith and never give up! I believe that if you guys are meant to be, things will come full circle and you'll end up together!!!

Although, don't forget....Yusuke will be very disappointed if his wifey isn't happy!!!! ^_<v

[gok2]

if it doesn't concern you, then why does it matter?
I sooooo agree with you there!! Its like its not even their business & they have to stick their noses in it & try to split people up, ruining their future, relationships and esteem!
really hope your friend will find a way out, and her/he and their partner can just enjoy their time together
Yes, i really hope so too! & thank you so much! <33
ahahah with maths, its just like i hate it, and it hates me back! LOL
why might you never see him again?
Because he used to be in the same class with me for tutor... but then the classes changed.. & i havent really talked to him much before.. >< i dont even know what school he goes to... =S
ngawww yusukeee <3

[airah4]

Yeah, I don't know why people have to do that! If it's not your life and your life isn't being affected, then why is it your business!? So sad......

And I hope everything has gotten a little better! I am so glad we got to chat earlier (and joke around as the baka duo, mwahahahaha XDDDD), though I still hope things will get better for you and your friend!

Yusuke will keep you company until that boy realizes he's missing someone in his life! But really...I believe these things have a way of working themselves out, even if it takes a very long time. Ganbatte, Gok-chan!! I'm sending all my good wishes! *hugs*

[gok2]

So sorry for this super late reply marysa! ><
But i hope your having fun in kansai! =DD

& yeh, our chat times are so awesomeeeee

I hope yusuke gets really jealous & starts bashing the hell out of that dumb boy XDD
awwww yusuke, i love him <33
thanks so much marysa! it might take a while for me to get over him, but i really do believe i'll get over it!

*hugs back* <3

[airah4]

It's okay! It was fantastic!!! Wait until you see some of the pictures!!! >0<

And I agree...I miss our chats. I don't think I can joke about those kinds of things (like the baka duo XD) with most people. XDDDDD Except for Alex. But she's not a baka, if only because her and Tomo set things straight! XP

HAHAHAHA!!!! Oh wow, you know, he might! Because he might be worried that you'll stop loving him if he keeps burning the food, and maybe he'll worry that that guy will make better food and so he'll start bashing that guy like there's not tomorrow!!!! >< At which point..............You should dive in to the rescue! XD

(I'm sorry, I'm so tired, my baka duo stories are a baka failure right now. ^^;;; Just got back from the trip an hour ago!)

Anyway, I hope you are feeling at least a little better now and have had some time for rest!!! We missed everyone so much! Take care!!!